i wrote this to try to document the feeling of starting fall in love with a person and trying to downplay my feelings because of fear of the consequences brought by the stupid things I've done in the past.
Woah, that was a mouthful!! 😅
I realized that, you can always be on guard with walls so high up, because you don't want to mess up again. But, when you find that special someone who will make you feel brave enough to try again, then you'd see that falling in love is worth trying again...if that makes sense.